Begin Again

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Note the tall light posts along the Severn River.

I’m back.

I am eager to share with you, patient reader, news of my friends the Naval Academy osprey, Oscar and Opal.

You may recall one of my early blogs, July 18, 2012, when I recounted the amazing saga of two determined osprey who have nested for at least 13 years in the light poles above the Naval Academy’s practice football field. (I have been walking their for about 14 years, and first recall seeing the pair in 2001.)

Each spring I enjoy the return of this beautiful pair of powerful birds of prey. They rebuild their nest, lay a clutch of eggs, feed one another and guard the eggs and hatchlings. Then, when the time is right, patiently the parents coax their fledglings out of the nest, over the harbor training the young to catch the fish that are their preferred diet. This couple I named Opal and Oscar.

Last year, 2013, another osprey returned with Oscar and Opal in mid-March. He lingered in nearby trees and perched on light poles near the nest.  Oscar and Opal seemed to tolerate his presence, and he hung around until mid-summer, when I saw him no longer.  I named this young loner Pablo, and assumed he must be a member of Opal and Oscar’s clan.

Well, the saga continues!

This spring, 2014, Opal and Oscar  arrived and began repairing their nest.  And, again this spring, Pablo, arrived soon after his parents. But, this spring, Pablo was not alone… at least not for long.  While Oscar and Opal feathered their nests, Pablo seemed to dally about on the light posts just north of his parents, near the Academy’s soccer fields.

Pablo is not one to be ignored. He often greets walkers and joggers with his high-pitched “scree-ee” that echoes out across the Severn River.  And we, unfeathered and earth-bound, are not the only ones who hear his lusty call.

Within two weeks of the osprey’s return, Pablo was joined by a lithe beauty I’ve named Pearl.  She is a quiet osprey, or so she seems to me.

Today, I watched Pablo perform for her as Pearl sat, statuesque, atop a light pole. As I passed, he screeched, soared out over the river and swooped low along the surface of the water. His talons caught a fish, and effortlessly he lifted fish and self high over the water and pirouetted, fish still firmly in his grasp.  He cried out again, triumphantly I’d say, and flew lazily along the line of light posts, directly past his beloved Pearl. “See what I’ve got.”  She didn’t bat an eye or move a wing feather. She let him perform his hijinks, knowing, I suspect, that the fish would be hers to dine on at her leisure.

Now, you might be thinking, how does this batty birder conclude that Pablo is, in fact, an offspring of the elder osprey, Opal and Oscar?

I really have been cautious in my anthropomorphism, chary reader.  First, I noted how the senior and more powerful osprey, Oscar, tolerated this young bird in such close proximity to his mate and to their nest.  I noticed that Oscar particularly would allow Pablo to accompany him as they soared out over the harbor and Severn River. Together the two male osprey raced along the water’s surface and plucked fish from the waves.

And then, a few days ago I had my suspicions confirmed, my doubts dissolved, my uncertainties answered.  I saw the nest Pablo is building for Pearl… and… it is two-stories!

You may recall that during Hurricane Isabel in 2003, Opal and Oscar’s nest, filled with eggs, was destroyed, blown apart.  But the couple was unbowed.  They rebuilt their nest. And, instead of placing the new nest directly atop the remains, they wove a nest on the upper Oscar -  Opalbars of the light post, the very top.  So, when the work was done, their nest looked like a two-story bungalow.  (My July, 2012 blog spoke about their engineering feat.) Each year Oscar brings fresh twigs and leaves to both the lower and the upper nests, though the eggs are laid always in the second or upper story.

Well, Pablo may be old enough to take a partner – osprey usually mate when three or four years old.  But osprey do not, as a rule, build two-story nests.

So, when I saw that Pablo instinctively built his nest with both a lower and an upper story, I was sure of his parentage. He mimicked his parent’s nesting habits. He is his parent’s son.

Pablo and Pearl will raise their broods high atop the Naval Academy light pole, overlooking the Severn River.  They’ll probably never use that lower nest, but it will be maintained and remain a tribute to Pablo’s resilient parents.

Birder or birds, we live much of our lives in the patterns of our parents and grandparents.  How would I explain the way I weed my garden or clean the kitchen? They’re rote behaviors, and I weed and clean (when I clean, which is rare) mindlessly, following the methods and manner used by my mom and dad. Like so many things we do, the rationale might be forgotten, but the behaviors continue, silent tributes to our wise and patient parents, sisters, grandparents, aunts, uncles and caregivers.

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Among Friends…

Thanksgiving seems an ideal time for me to share my gratitude for friendships both new and mature – avoiding that heavily weighted “old” adjective.

There is little I need say about the following poem. It was sent to me by my cousin, a fellow poetry lover. She shares with me gem-like poems she encounters, like found treasures along life’s path. 

Before you lose yourself in the poem, perhaps a word about the poet who distilled so much into these 17 lines.  John Daniels, born in South Carolina and raised in DC, teaches and writes here in the United States.  

A Prayer among Friends

by John Daniel

Among other wonders of our lives, we are alive
with one another, we walk here
in the light of this unlikely world
that isn’t ours for long.
May we spend generously
the time we are given.
May we enact our responsibilities
as thoroughly as we enjoy
our pleasures. May we see with clarity,
may we seek a vision
that serves all beings, may we honor
the mystery surpassing our sight,
and may we hold in our hands
the gift of good work
and bear it forth whole, as we
were borne forth by a power we praise
to this one Earth, this homeland of all we love.

“A Prayer among Friends” by John Daniel, from Of Earth. © Lost Horse Press, 2012. 

Daily, I think of you with gratitude and delight, my patient readers and friends.

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Gotcha!

 I’m back!

I’m lurching back from the brink of technological oblivion, dear Reader.  I’ve been hacked, malware loaded, threatened with a ransom and left to shrivel in a dark cave with my encrypted Microsoft files.

One morning, two weeks ago, I awakened my sleeping pc only to be accosted with this huge, red box.   CryptoLocker had hijacked my computer, and I had only one option: PAY UP!

In the red box, a malevolent digital clock ticked away the minutes remaining before all my files would be locked – “irretrievably,” warned the box.  I had only one choice, the screen text insisted; go to the web address listed or click the blue button.  I would be connected to someone or something that would take my credit card information, charge me $300, and release my files.

 Mistake #1: I had, two or three days earlier, opened an email from the “USPS” and clicked the attached “Undeliverable Package” receipt.

Yes, I know, “Stupid!”  I’d gotten hundreds of similar phishing messages through my inbox.  I’d ignored them, deleted them, chuckled in bemused arrogance.  But not this time…

I was rushing.  I wanted to clean-up my Inbox before I left to teach. I wanted to get out of there!  Read the subject line; open the email; skim the STOP!content; Delete or move on.

  Delete or move on… Delete or …

As my cursor slid over the attachment icon and my finger clicked I KNEW I was making a mistake.  That split second my buzzing brain yelled, “What the  heck are you doing, Girl?!?!”

But, it was too late…

Or was it?  Nothing happened!  My screen didn’t go black. I saw no document or message.  “Ah, I sighed. You almost made a dumb mistake. No harm, no foul.” 

Boy, was I wrong…

Mistake #2: Perhaps, if I’d taken action to protect myself right away, I could have limited the damage to our system.  But, I didn’t…

I could have turned off my computer, disconnected my pc from our networked computers, run our spyware programs just to check for any invasive software, called my in-house computer guru, Larry in and described what had happened so he could check for damage.

But, I didn’t… 

Instead, I sighed, scooped up my briefcase and left. 

While I went my merry way, CryptoLocker was worming its way through my computer and the network, including two other computers. It made no sound, disturbed nothing visibly. But the virus searched out and encrypted every Microsoft Office document saved on our system. Every WORD, every PowerPoint, every Excel file – LOCKED. 

For 48 hours this malware ground away… and then, the red-box-of-death appeared.  When I saw it that morning, I tried to remain calm.  We had a service in place to protect us.  I’d call them immediately for help.

Mistake #3:  I clicked my Explore search engine on my pc and typed in McAfee’s web address.  Up popped the page – or so I thought.  The photo of a smiling, professional face wearing a headset; an 800-number in bold print; the McAfee logo and verbage.  “All would be well,” I thought.

It would take an hour’s phone time with the NOT-McAfee “tech support” people (3 different, deeply accented voices) before I’d finally get it.

I had not gotten to the legitimate McAfee web site; I was not speaking with real IT people; they were not going to help me resolve my CryptoLocker catastrophe. 

My computer belonged to them!  Everything I saw was plastered on my pc screen by the invaders.  The phone number I dialed connected me with the very people who had control of my files.  They were not going to help me.  They were going to get my credit card information any way they could.

When I finally came to my senses and disconnected my phone, I surveyed the damage.  I’d introduced the CryptoLocker virus onto my pc.  I had not taken action to stop any damage, and the damage was done. All our document files were corrupted – probably forever.  I’d wasted an hour talking to the very people who’d caused my problem, and I’d allowed them onto my pc while they “helped” me. 

Over the next 48 hours: We had to clean off the CryptoLocker malware from our system, with the invaluable help from the real McAfee technicians.  We struggled without success to unlock the encryption on our files and documents. We updated and upgraded all our security services.

And now…  now we are slowly, painstakingly rebuilding our files and documents…   from back-ups that are two years old.  (Yes, that’s 2 years – 24 months – 730 days old!)

Mistake #4:  While we’d kept careful back-ups of our system’s software, we had not done a full back-up of our documents in a very long time.  (A lot of work  goes on in two years.)

Now, we are doing daily back-ups of our documents and files.

And that, patient Reader, is my sad tale of woe. 

I share my humiliation and headaches with you so that, perhaps, it may serve as another of those cautions that plant themselves somewhere in our subconscious.  And, one busy day, when you’re tempted to open that attachment or listen to that confident voice on the other end of the phone line… you’ll STOP and remember my ordeal. 

When in doubt – DON’T!!!     

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Birthdays Are Good For You

Let me share with you a tiny gift, dear reader, penned by Dag Hammarskjold, UN Secretary General and Nobel Peace Prize recipient,

If only I may grow: firmer, simpler-quieter, warmer.

July is chocked full of birthdays, dates when I  celebrate some of my favorite people, dates when I draw upon my memories of and experiences with each loved one,  opportunities to recall those qualities I admire and cherish in each person.  I hold my own little celebration that these folks share their lives with me.

I have been thinking about my friends’ birthdays, their gifts to my life, and the gifts I might offer to them – gifts both tangible and intangible.

When I was a child, I responded like a child to each birthday. My family loved birthdays. Whether we were honoring elders or children, parties were planned, cakes were baked and decorated, flowers were picked and balloons inflated.  All the aunts, uncles, cousins and friends were invited.  And, if you didn’t attend, you’d better have a good excuse, such as a sudden attack of intestinal flu or a broken bone!

Gifts were always presented to the honoree, gifts that were carefully wrapped in bright paper and tied with ribbon. Our family had little “disposable income,” but presents were about thoughtfulness. Grandma loved to crochet, so a new pattern book would be welcome.  My sister’s baby doll needed new pajamas, so I could sew up a little outfit out of flannel scraps. Aunt Helen loved receiving a tiny cactus or geode to add to her collection.  There were plastic soldiers for Cousin Bill.  Homemade cards and brooches made of seashells.

Back then I hadn’t read the 19th Century essayist and Transcendentalist Ralph Waldo Emerson or his wise precepts.  I probably wouldn’t have paid much attention back then to Emerson’s adage, “The only gift is a portion of thyself.”

But that is exactly what we learned as children.  The celebration of a family birthday was the celebration of that person’s presence in our lives.  We were taught by example to think about the strengths and interests of each person and to reflect our understanding in the presents we gave.

Now, as a grown-up, demonstrating my understanding and respect for friends and relatives seems more complicated.  The difficulty does not come in my efforts or desire to understand and appreciate, the difficulty comes in finding a graceful way to express that understanding.

For my young friends, I still can choose a toy or book that might delight.  For my mature friends, I must find understated ways to express my own celebration of their births, perhaps more restrained than a toy and a song… or perhaps not.

Now that I’ve reached the designated age of “elder,” I am declaring my independence.  Fair warning, dear ones: No longer will I “hold back” (though some might say I never have) when I want to sing the praises of you,  cherished friend or family member.

I will sing “Happy Birthday” and wrap up “grownup” toys. I will bake cupcakes and dish up ice cream for one and all.  Because… faithful reader, that’s just the kind of gal I am.  That’s the gift that is a portion of me.

Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.

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Apologies to a tiny turtle

On my walk this morning, I came upon a tiny turtle,  brown and about the size of a silver dollar.  At first I thought it was just a dry leaf, and I nearly stepped on it.  But I paused to admire its beauty and realized it was a living creature – an eastern snapping turtle, I think.     

What was I to do? She was headed for the far side of the road, away from the boulders that line the shore, toward the lush, green grass… countless steps away! 

I feared that by the time her legs carried her halfway across the tarmac, she’d be brunch for an observant osprey or hungry seagull.  And, if the birds didn’t gobble her down or feed her to their fledglings, a speeding car or tuned-out runner would squash her for sure.

So, I made one of those split-second decisions… which I now question.  Grabbing a tissue from my pocket I lifted tiny turtle into the soft, white folds, and whisked her across the danger zone and onto the grass.

There she was when last I saw her… wondering what the heck had happened, remaining perfectly still, trying to figure out what to do next.  For, as Emerson drily observed, “All the thoughts of a turtle are turtle.”

And I, being human, thinking my human thoughts, stumbled on,  succumbing to wavelets of guilt with each step: Was my effort to help really a selfish gesture that left tiny turtle in more danger than she’d faced on her own?  What led me to think I knew best what should happen next in her life? 

Obviously, her dusty-mahogany shell wouldn’t blend in with the blades of emerald grass. Perhaps she was even more likely to be spotted by a predator.  Once she caught her breath, did  she instinctively pivot and begin the long and dangerous journey back to the boulders on the far side of the road? 

Hadn’t I so often read those cautionary tales? – Don’t interfere with the lives of man or beast; don’t assume you know what is best for others – and that includes tiny turtles, missy.

I’m reminded of lines by one of my favorite poets, Mary Oliver.  This excerpt is from “Turtle” – her poem after a similar encounter:

But, listen,
what’s important?
Nothing’s important

except that the great and cruel mystery of the world,
of which this [the turtle] is a part,
not to be denied…

And so it goes… Nature’s lessons are hard on us all.  I’ve been set the task to relearn humility and patience, – perhaps at the expense of my fellow traveler, tiny turtle.

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